Call me Ed.
English is a tough language, Marie. I'm in no position to compare it with others, as I have yet to reach conversational level in any other, but I think it is a good one for expressing feelings in a nuanced way.
Honestly, I'm quite impressed with your command of English idiom as well as grammar and sentence structure. I wouldn't say you sound like a native speaker yet--there is an "accent" in your writing--but you express yourself more clearly than a lot of my students, who are 18-20 year old Arkansans.